Thursday, March 26, 2009

mixed emotions : mixed persons

Why do I feel this way?

This morning on my way to the meeting place for our swimming (yes, I was allowed to have fun with my blockmates) I’m some kinda not excited. I felt terrible disappointed. Ö a bit exaggerated I think but I’m really upset.

This person keeps on bugging me join them with that get-together but crap. Err. I shouldn’t act this way. I don’t have the rights but I felt that jealousy sprouts from nowhere.

Why do I keep on sticking on a person who doesn’t need me at all?
I’m just wasting my time focusing on him while he has that 100% focus on the other girl or should I say his special, really special someone and slap on my face, IT’S NOT ME.

Damn it.
Who are you Chai?

I just enjoyed my day with my special friend who gives his full attention to me. Thank God he's there. Thought not all the time, he makes an effort to be with me when I needed someone or even went I don’t. Ehehe. He always makes me smile.

Mood Swings: from jealousy to happiness and confusion

Remember the party with my colleagues I wrote last night? I didn’t expect that my ex-boyfriend, hmm... no not the right term. My close friend was the man behind that and he said to me that I’m his number 1 reason why he pursues that party at the Manor.

I know him. I know my Ex-BF/close friend. He’s not the type of a guy who will go to a bar party. But then, boom! He organized one just for me. And he’s willing to sacrifices things just for that.

Happiness is the word.
Much appreciated.

But why?
Confused. Bewildered. Puzzled.
But still I don't mind that much because I'm so THANKFUL and that’s the only thought that until now still lingers here in my head. Ű

^takaw and payat…

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

what's the motion on the floor?


Today was the first day of our summer class for Political Economy Practicum.

I think I’m really out of my mind yesterday and earlier for the fact I have in mind that my class will start at 9am in the morning to 12noon. So I’ve decided to leave the house an hour before the time. Luckily our Professor, which was our dear Economics Chairman didn’t attend the class meeting.

On the way home, my best friend told me that our class really starts at 7:30 in the morning and I was totally shocked. He thought that I’m just being “Little Miss Late” again for the fact that I went to school that late. Ahaha! We keep on arguing which is which. 7:30am or 9am and then when we looked at our registration card, he won. Ahaha! What’s happening to me? Too much thinking for nothing? Err. Insanity strikes again.

Now before I lay down in this mattress I’m still confuse if I will join my block mates tomorrow on our section’s swimming or I will join the bar party with my colleagues on Friday. I can’t have both. This wasn’t part of my budget allocated for this month. Because I expect that my parents won’t allow me to be on that swimming yet now they are setting me free, a bit. Ahaha! I mean they let me go with the guidance of my best friend. ö

So sloppy post.

^my bear Dhamar is beside me.. . Ü

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Dummy Blog

Location: My own bedroom in Pasig, City
Mood: Ms. dysmenorrheal attacks.

Finally im home again! I’m pretty sick and I hate-love it. I hate it because it’s a bit painful, I can’t move freely (you know girl thing). But still I love it for the fact that I can stay all day in my bed either sleeping or reading or browsing in the net which I usually do during summer vacation without any disturbances from my family.

I’m trying to fix and put more information on this blog. My previous post which about my best friend is I think some kinda mushy. Ahaha! He read it and texted me that he was touched. I thought he will say that I’m so pathetic. But nope…he didn’t.

Maybe for others it’s a bit weird that a blog has background music. “Wula lang” ahaha! I just wanted it to be in this way. Odd. I’m going to change it soon. I’m still looking for a relaxing music that will suite here.

Any suggestions?

^I’m Ms. Independent…

Monday, March 23, 2009

are we really LUCKY?

Location: Taytay, Philippines
Mood: Senti

Last week my bestfriend and I made a playlist just for us. And on one of the playlist he put a song and pm me to listen to that song. He sadly says that he hope that i won't put malice on that song. When I saw the title I smiled because I knew it. After hearing the song over and over again until now I dont't know what will I say to my best friend. I just keep on smiling.

Duh? Im so blissful having him in my life. Ü

Now Playing:
The song LUCKY by Jason Mraz ft. Colbie Caillat
here's the lyrics:

Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music, feel the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

*i hope he can read this..

^thank you BESTFRIEND..